Final mile count: 24,730
It’s been two weeks since Old Faithful and I rolled on home to Narragansett, completing our grand adventure of nine months, nearly 25,000 miles, 38 states and incalculable memories. To be honest, I never dared to dream the old girl would make it all the way! I envisioned a fatal breakdown somewhere in Kentucky or Alabama six or seven months in, leaving me to Greyhound it the rest of the way. But she’s still truckin’ on, oil leaks be damned!
After plenty of time catching up on sleep, TV from the past year and time with my family, I feel ready to address the churning mixture of emotions regarding what it means to close this wild chapter of my life and begin anew. Looking back on the first post, I feel a profound sense of achievement of all the goals of this trip. In no particular order:
- Visiting and spending time with scattered friends and relatives, gaining insight into the lives of people I know and love
- Exploring every nook and cranny of this country that caught my interest, whether the obvious (San Francisco, Grand Canyon) or the obscure (Astoria, Ocala National Forest)
- Making new friends, acquaintances and partnerships that are just now in their infancy
- Developing new skills, mostly having to do with outdoorswomanship and sustainable practices
- Consuming literature to my heart’s content
- Utilizing every one week free trial yoga deal in the country
- Chasing summer
- Experiencing how others live in a kaleidoscope of circumstances and lifestyles
- Listening to the ideas, hopes, dreams, travels, fears and concerns of random people every day
- Using this blog to practice writing, share the journey with others and record it for posterity
- Luxuriating in limitless freedom and independence
- Balancing the line between loneliness and solitude
- Discovering the physical capabilities of my body
- Finding patriotism and a personal relationship with my nation
- Traveling on a budget
- Maximizing the time I had to experience each place to the fullest
- Making the year I was 22 the most insane, extraordinary, freewheelin’ 365 days possible
- Two speeding tickets, countless parking tickets, one car towing
- Sent two bikes to bike heaven
- Lost a plethora of personal items
- Wrote blog posts that were too long and too infrequent (like this one!)
- Got to San Francisco one day late for the Hardly Strictly Bluegrass Festival and did not see the Black Keys on tour when I had the chance.
- Did not work up the courage to play music in the street for money, even in cities where I knew absolutely nobody
- Started taking interstates instead of blue highways to save time and money
- Did not hike nearly enough of the Appalachian Trail despite living practically on it for a month
- Didn’t make it to: Glacier, Zion, Bryce Canyon, Monument Valley or Great Smokies National Parks. Nor did I get to Crater Lake, Mt. Hood, Napa Valley, Charleston S.C., Victoria B.C., Bozeman M.T., Olympia W.A., Monterey C.A., or a multitude of other places.
In regard to that last bullet point– a major discovery I made is that traveling is one of those things where the more you learn, the more you realize you don’t know. The more places you go and the more people you meet, the more incredible places and adventures you hear about and want to experience. This is not in any way a bad thing, just overwhelming for us who want to do and see and hear and taste and touch it all, but know that it’s a lovely impossibility…
Two weeks ago in New York City, I was in Times Square thinking about–what else–time. I was in the capitalist and cultural epicenter of the nation, relishing in the utter anonymity of the most crowded street corner in the world, and beginning to get powerfully depressed about the impending end of the journey. Side note–this is another thing I love about New York, you experience emotions at their utmost extremes. Anyway, I was thinking about time and how there’s no way to stop its relentless flow. No matter how much we try to savor and preserve a moment (or nine months in my case), it constantly moves forward, never back. For us humans living in this world defined by Newtonian physics, time moves at the exact same pace every single second of every single day of every single year of every single millenium. Until we discover time travel or a rip in the fabric, that’s just the way of it.
Like death and taxes, the unshakeable truth of time steamrolling ahead and getting older is something we cannot change. Almost always, the things we cannot change or influence are the hardest parts of life to grapple with and understand. So, understandably, we distract ourselves with the earthly dealings and processes that fill our lives with pain, joy, and everything in between. While we cannot change or answer the Big Questions, we can change the way we spend our time on this earth: where we live, what we eat, how we make money, who we love, how we empathize with others, how we interact with the natural world. This journey has taught me to accept the things I cannot change and refuse to accept the things I can.
This journey has taught me that people way overvalue physical comfort. Human beings are tough and resilient, not just sacks of mostly water and carbon. Sleeping on floors or the ground, doing manual labor in the sun, traversing the land, not eating three huge meals a day– these are things our bodies can not only accomodate, but are better for. You will be better for it. I’m not insane, I do like warm beds and hot showers and extravagant meals. But knowing deep down that those things are a want and not a need is incredibly liberating.
This journey has taught me how preposterously large the United States of America is. Politically, it has made me a believer of state’s rights and libertarianism, a far cry from the classic liberalism I started out with. I think trying to govern 313 million ideologically disparate people over 3.8 million square miles of topographically diverse land is absolutely absurd. It’s just too. damn. big. Everything about the U.S. is too big– our debt, our government, our army, our waistlines, our greed. We need to think smaller. We need to worry about what’s going on in our regions and communities, and invest in our local land, businesses and people. The strength and spirit of the local food and sustainability movement has blown me away, and I know it will continue to grow and provide hope for the future.
Finally, this journey has reinforced the best piece of advice I ever received: “Fake it ’til you make it.” Just taking a leap and pretending like you can do something, even if you’re freaked out and don’t think you can, is better than not doing it at all. If you fake your way through a beginning, all of a sudden you’re in the middle, rapidly approaching an end. Jump, and you’ll swim.
I’m terrified that it’s all over, for now my future is 100% unscripted. This summer I’ll be living in Narragansett, RI working two jobs and an internship that I would not have gotten if not for the knowledge and experience acquired on this adventure. I’ll be putting my newfound agricultural skills to the test for a landscaping/fine gardening business, integrating my love of bicycling and talking to strangers as a pedicab rider in Newport, and writing/editing/marketing/blogging/social media-ing for Edible Rhody Magazine, a publication dedicated to celebrating local food. Freewheeling will not die, however. In what little free time I do find this summer I’ll be trekking and exploring northern New England as much as possible. After that? Who knows.
I’ll bid farewell with a little help from some literary greats.
John Steinbeck, in the final chapter of Travels with Charley comments on the “life span of journeys. Who has not known a journey to be over and dead before the traveler returns? The reverse is also true: many a trip continues long after movement in time and space have ceased.”
William Least Heat Moon ends Blue Highways with Lines from a Navajo Wind Chant
Then he was told:
Remember what you have seen,
because everything forgotten
returns to the circling winds.











































































